<English vs Chinese> In fact, I've got tons to say and express. But, it's just unfortunate that I don't type Chinese at a reasonably speed. As a result, I gave up all the thoughts and didn't type anything at all.
But I think I've got to change. I just have an uprising impulse to write... after all, I haven't written for too long. Although I still believe that my Chinese writing is much more expressive and pleasant than my English ones, I really have to use English here... poor me... Life is actually quite exhausting. I thought that this job could make life a bit easier. At least I shoud have more spare time when working in a 24-hr duty shift. But in fact, the work was quite a lot and both my superiors and inferiors gave me work to do. I was there during the Mong Kok incident. The fire wasn't really that big, but without sprinkler protection and (I believe) the smoke-stop doors removed, no wonder why the fire spread in that manner and the two staircases were damaged so badly. it was really the first time I was so deeply impressed by the capability of those smoke-stop doors. The rooms upstairs were almost unaffected under the protection of those doors. People dunno should be brought up there to realize the differences between smoke-stop doors shut properly and wedged open. I felt sad for those two colleagues. I don't know them but it is so tragic to know that something like this happened... I thought to myself, if I were one of them, would I have done the same? And honestly, I believe most of us, firefighters, would simply do the same 'coz that was what we learnt frrom the Fire Services Training School. Of course we were trained not to exchange our life with others, but to save others. However, it's the risk that we must face in performing our duties. The deaths of the two colleagues really reminded me to take good care of myself and more importantly my fellow colleagues at incidents. Dai Gao and Beagle are such sweet babies. I love you two! It was you that have made me not scared of dogs. Even more amazingly, you have made me like dogs! A guy like me, bitten by dogs before, couldn't possibly love dogs so much. This is really an interesting life experience for myself. But raising you guys is expensive. Dai Gao, you are especially ‘bad boy’! Why are you so easily sick? You know, bring you to the vet really costs a fortune. I am going to jump out of the roof top! Please be good!~ Mo Mo is back from the gate of death. I am so sorry, Mo Mo, for not taking good care of you. I’ve got to admit that I ignored you these days. I’m sorry. It’s my responsibility to take good care of you, my sweet daughter! But I almost killed you… From now on, I promise I will take the best care of you until you are very old and leave this world. I understand that you have much pressure in life, especially in regard to my personal problems and my mom’s. I understand that you have your own character. I understand that my mom isn’t easy to get along. I understand you have tried to make things better. I see your efforts. I dunno what to do with this problem. I really think iit should be my mom who should do something on it and change her mindset. But she’s really reluctant to do so. Perhaps she just can’t do it. It’s too late for a 60-yr-old lady to change her mindset… I’m sorry that you have to work a job like that. I feel very useless myself. I feel so sad. It’s all my fault not giving you a better life. Before you were with me, you didn’t need to do any housework. Before you were with me, you didn’t need to work for money. Before you were with me, you didn’t have to face so much pressure and so many problems in life. Before you were with me, you didn’t have poor skin. Before you were with me, you was not lazy in studies. Before you were with me, you didn’t get sick often. Before you were with me, you didn’t cry so much. Before you were with me, you wasn’t so disappointed and anguished. Before you were with me, you wasn’t so tired. I’m sorry. I feel so vulnerable in life. Over the years, all I want is to live a happy life. And I truly believe that making those important people in my life happy will accomplish my goal. Yet, I fail again and again… Life is not easy. Hopefully, tomorrow is better… | 
期待之餘，我也有點緊張呢！不過作為「學習如何教仔」，這真是難能可貴的經驗！
